Lately...

hmm... lately I've been feeling left out, like i don't belong in this world. I know i am having fun, but don't you feel like sometimes your an extra??? like my cousins have each other i'm alone. I'm always alone... the only way i can escape from reality and be myself is music. I'm gradually being sucked into a black hole of music:) can't stop listening to it and it's like i'm falling into another world! I know that i'm not the brightest at school and not the prettiest. I'm average at everything. The only thing that's good about me is my creativity. I honestly don't know what that can do for you in life. I won't be able to get a job with just that. But i've always wanted to become a flight attendant. I'm still reaching for that dream but even that's hard!! GAH! i hate life sometimes!!